You’re in my sight
and no longer am I afraid
to confront the injustice you have done
upon me, my family, and friends

A true bastard you are
leaving a permanent scar
upon my very existence
never to leave and always to witness

I’m ashamed to be given this mark
But it’s never been my fault
That the God’s have decided to say
Leave me in pain and find my own way

I wander alone
Wondering the purpose of this all
If there’s even a purpose at all
That is…..

The demonic creature lurking around
Are of my own possession
While they take away all of my attention
Towards the light of full life

I can’t enjoy a second
Without thinking about
Pulling the Trigger
Hopefully leading to heaven

I know my time is closing near
Since I was born there was no fear
Of the day that’ll eventually come
The one that comes visit us all


I’m Not Bold

I’m not bold
A hypocrite at most
let’s give a toast
to the host of the show
It’s me but not me
Can’t you see ?

I apologize and I’m sorry
but i’m not so don’t worry
For all that’s worth knowing
Is if my life will be worth knowing

Losing your soul is it worth the wait?
Reeking havoc within your inner hate
Willing to do whatever it is
worth willing to do

Isn’t that sane though?
Willing to do the insane
for money, fortune, and fame
All with a price tag to pay
Does my shadow follow me?
Or do I follow it?

Who am I to know…
The darkness creeps in
seeping when it pleases
toying with me, as if there’s no reason

Why I commit treason
against my soul
with nothing to show

For I will not be amazed
or ashamed
to the answer thereafter
If there’ll be another chapter

My Fuel

You fuel me so much
I thank you for that
But you’re also the pedal
Draining me out.

It doesn’t matter what it’s about
The darkness just comes and goes
Speeding at times
but then going slow

I can’t move without it though
My engine that drives me
the curse that lays inside
taunting at me until the day I die

It’s an awful high
Making you cry
Breaking you down
Running you to the ground

Rushing the trenches
You have no chances
Surrender and Give Up
So you can start and not let up

No Matter The Circumstance

It’s sad that a man
Can hide his emotions
without shedding a tear
acting like there’s no fear

The years of boyhood
Are gone
Invisible to the eyes
Within the blink of an eye

Everything changes
And nothing is the same
life is a new mirror
and we’re the one’s who choose

How to live stay alive
Is nothing to see and cry
For in the end we all die
But shouldn’t we say
We gave it a try

Death is guaranteed
And that’s a certificate
That is always legitimate
No matter how definitive

We select and choose
The life we must live
but we can not decide
The emotion of man

No matter the occasion
No matter the circumstance
A man should always feel free
And able and to cry

In grief
After hiding all
that was underneath
I feel guilty

For not trying to feel

This Was The Night

This was the night
The night it all came out
Violence and Blood coming to shout
My composure couldn’t be kept
As an everlasting impression
Has weighed
Upon my heart and soul
He wasn’t doing anything
Just another soul
Walking through
A soulless town
I speed faster
Tracking down my prey
When I show up
He looks up
He didn’t look afraid
As our eyes
locked onto one another
He begins to laugh
so I began to shoot
There he laid
Blood splattered on the concrete
I began to walk up
To see what I’ve done
I couldn’t believe it
There wasn’t any blood
I turn my head
Towards his body
And there he is
Glancing at me laughing
You can’t kill
What’s already dead

What I’ve Become

What have I become
A lurking shadow in the dark
Walking slowly towards my pain
Realizing there may be nothing to gain

In the light you don’t have a clue
Wearing a mask you can’t see
What’s truly lays beneath
The monster you’ve never seen

Was this meant to be
Embedded in my soul
Feeling the coldness
Brought within me
Controlling every breath I breathe

Your at the wheel sometimes
speeding down a hill
an urge so strong you could kill
Bringing nothing but a chill

Slithering down my spine
bound together through time
the fight no longer goes on
postponed till the end of my time

I know for a fact
you will always stay intact
There’s never been a second
You’ve left me and I pretended

That you’ve never been here
apart of me and apart of you
you made me hollow inside
while I give you life

A gift in the most unpleasant way
I can’t keep you at bay
Because sadly I must say
I can’t live without you so sadly I must pay

Fear and Loathing: In the 2016 Election……. (continued)

October 22, 2015

Well according to some poll results, someone is finally above Donald Trump. In the state of Iowa Ben Carson has supposedly pass Trump for the first time. Which feels like the first time in this election that anyone has beat Trump whatsoever. Watching Republicans fight it out on the campaign trails is almost as entertaining as watching the Ultimate Fighting Championship. Unfortunately the same can not be said for the Democrats. Hillary Clinton has mailed herself into a difficult position. Yet, she still is in the lead for the Democratic nomination. The woman who couldn’t even keep her husband in check is now going to try and take on the position of Commander and Chief. Now, I’m not worried about anyone “going down” on Hillary, but I am worried about how our enemies will view us. However, if the world was full of women who were political leaders, Hillary would be the outright President. Anything involving diplomacy would involve only one person and that is a man by the name of Bill Clinton. He would arrive with a “pants” load of confidence willing to shoot a load of American diplomacy over the faces of anything or anyone standing in his way. Bill cheated on Hillary and Bill is still vastly more popular than Hillary…. What does that tell ya…… Hillary feels as if she has the womens majority vote locked up but she doesn’t. I see more and more young women starting to support Bernie Sanders than Hillary. Which is a relief to see. For the simple fact that there will be women who’ll vote for Hillary and have no absolute clue about what she stands for or any of her policies. That’s America for you though….. A highschool student in the recent months decided to create a fake candidate by the name of DEEZ NUTS. Deez Nuts got about a 9 percent of support in the poles not to long ago even though everyone knew that Deez Nuts will be no longer. The election isn’t until November of 2016 so who knows what may happen. Hillary may get a sex change and start calling herself Hank Clinton, I don’t think Bill would be bothered much by it either way. If any of the other candidates were found to have an private e-mail with classified information. They would’ve been kicked out of the race by now. Especially if it was Donald Trump. Candidates on both sides would of squeezed every last drop of that event to ruin his campaign. Yet, here lies Hillary still unscaved for all her lies. Good thing it wasn’t an average citizen who could have committed this unjustifiable crime. For they would be hanging by the limb of that which we call Treason. However, for some reason. Hillary isn’t troubled by this act of treason. Talk about a pain in the ass. With all the other candidates thinking “what the Fuck if I would’ve done that my ass would be shipped out of the U.S. by now”. On the other hand, it may of benefited the other Democrats running for office. Actually giving them air time so people can actually acknowledge and notice them. But there’s only two people in this fight to represent the sign of the Jackass.